I mean, sure, I’ve made a big deal about it and let everyone know and even created a hashtag for it on Twitter (#GNABRT), but I always thought, at the back of my mind, that I could weasel out if I wanted.
Now, you might wonder, with all the excitement and background I’ve already shared, why would I want to back out. Fair question (if you weren’t wondering, well, guess today’s post is a bonus for you).
I’ve gotten awful used to my hermit lifestyle. I don’t go anywhere, really and many days I don’t even go out. Taking a 15,000 mile, 39 stop, 73-day excursion is about as far from hermit life as I can imagine.
It’s not that I don’t like people; I do. I just don’t like meeting people. I’m still socially awkward; I either talk too much or don’t talk at all. Six years as a hermit hasn’t improved my skills. I’d be fine if I could meet people “already in progress”, my ice breaking talents aren’t too smooth (still single, remember?).
In an odd way, it probably also explains why I’ve been less aggressive on marketing my books. I don’t know which would bother me more, being little known or notoriety.
But, what the hey, it’s truly a once-in-a-lifetime thing I’m planning and I realized that a little social shyness will be nothing compared to the immense satisfaction I’ll have upon completing this adventure.
Of course, the other thing I realized while typing my email was that the “long time” I claimed I had before leaving is now less than two months. I don’t think I can delay getting started on the elaborate preparations I’ll need.
Okay. I’m (sorta) over my nerves. Let’s do this!